Stirring in a Pot
What of these Emotions I feel?
Overcome with Suspense
I don’t know what this Semester will Bring.
All I know is its Coming.
I am Going Back
I am Heading West
I am Heading Again, Away from the Culture and Home I know So well
I am Leaving my Comfort Zone
I am Heading Back
Here is to another Semester!
4 More Days
Until I am Back
What are we to Conform?
What are we to Judge?
Don’t you Struggles of your own?
Why would someone’s Struggles be any worse than yours?
Sure they have a Drug Addiction, but you have a Sex Addiction.
Sure they have Anxiety, but you have Depression.
This person is Gay, but you are Lusting over a woman.
You have no reason to Judge anyone else for their Struggles.
You are only the Judge of your own Struggles.
God is the only Judge of all of our Struggles.
Why Judge others for things we don’t Understand?
Why Judge people for what we have no Knowledge of?
Is it to make us look better?
Is it too Ease our own Struggles?
Is it too Escape the Burdens we feel deep inside?
Is it a way to take the Shame off yourself and pour onto others?
Is that really how we Judge?
Is it really how we Live?
The Computer Goes Tap
Tappty Tap Tap
On that Computer, Screen’s Black.
Tappty Tap Tap Tap
Move the Mouse Away from That.
Tappty Tap Tap Tap Tap
Why Did My Computer Screen Go Black?
Tappty Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap
Why Am I on That?
Tappty Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap
Why is the Screen all Cracked?
Tappty Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap
IS it Really a Hack?
Tappty Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap Tap
That is What is Happening to the Computer with the Black Screen, which was Hacked and Cracked in a Place Where it Should Not Be At.
The past few days I have been home from school on a nice, well-needed break. The semester has had its thrills and challenges, but I am confident and faithful that God will help me through the challenges and help me cherish the thrills that life brings to me. Even through the thoughts of confusion and self-discovery, I will prevail through with God as my lighted match. Ready to set ablaze my path for me. Although, the rain may come at times if I take out and strike my match. I can then be able to set my path on fire and allow it to lead the way in warmth and enlightenment.
“It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”
What is the point of trying so hard to something that you know you will fail at?
I pray I have faith, I work hard, I prevail, I contribute, but it all ends with an unsatisfying taste.
I hate feeling stupid, I hate feeling dumb, I hate feeling like I am failing. I am slowly fading into the darkness. Too scared to allow people to know, too afraid to make a change.
Just comes from the trial after trial, test after test, temptation after temptation. I can’t feel like this anymore.
I tried for help, help never came.
I know God answers my prayers. I just hope he answers my unanswered prayer soon.
I am tired of letting myself down and failing.
God, Please Answer my Prayer.
Head is spinning like a twig
Oh dear, you must be so sick
allowing you head to spin like a twig.
a twig twirling in the wind, losing its grip upon a stick.
Oh, how my head hurts from that stick.
The misconception of changing one mind is thought of, in my mind.
How can you change one’s mind, when you can’t even make up your own.
How can the curvatures and edges of the mind’s maze be reached, let alone changed?
How can the mind be changed when it’s constantly being manipulated?
How can the consumption one feel within the mind be altered by one’s change of mind?
This is the misconception of changing one’s mind
If it even allows change at all.
Will this really change the heart of the person you love?
Manipulation and Control?
I hope you know that changing one’s mind is a journey that may take a life time,
not a process that will merely take a moment.